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Tuesday, May 31, 2011 ♥ 1:33 PM

Top 10 reasons why Tina wont commit suicide:
10)i still want to go uni
9)i still want to have a boyfriend
8)i still want to get married
7)i still want to have a job
6)i got many dramas and animes to watch
5)I STILL WANT TO SEE SUJU AND ALL KPOP GRPS I LOVE
4)I am waiting for every suju comeback and the day when all 13 members comeback after their NS
3)ArctiCross have many songs and dances to cover
2)my cosplans!i still gt many characters havent cosplay T.T
1)IF I DID THOSE PPL WHO LOVE ME WILL BE HURT AND VERY SAD.I CANT BE SELFISH
even if there are many ppl that ask me to go and die,go to hell etc.,i will not care about them and still live.they dun want me live i dun care,i still want to live.only i can control my life and myself

Monday, May 23, 2011 ♥ 10:04 AM

I am feeling very lost right now.
Let me start the story here.
It happens on Friday,20 May 2011,16:54pm,at City Hall,when I am on my way to TrulyElf 1st anniversary gathering with Hiewling and her sister.(shall blog about it in my next post)He call me.He told me he is from SP Gusto Cheerleading.When I heard that I was like who are you and how you get my number?I didnt register for gusto.That is because once SP Gusto SMS me to ask me for tryout.I basically forget how is the conversation like.
Later at 16:56pm,my friend Nicole call me and told me about the guy who call me just now.She gave my number to him as he wants my number as he think i am chio.I call him back again and he admits that.Except he didnt say the chio part.I proceed to ask about his course.Then we sms and he say he wanted to meet me but not today as he stated that I hung up on him.Then I ask him when we can meet he say he is rather busy as SP gusto is going for competition thus he is busy with CCA.
Then today we sms again.I ask him if he had twitter as he dun hav facebook.He delete it since soooo many random girls add him according to him.Then he say he is a boring guy since he dun tweet much.I told him that i dun mind as long as he is nice.He then ask me how i know he is nice,I told him my 6th sense did.summore i told him my 6th sense told me he is caring,giv ppl 安全感 plus he is friendly,active and outgoing since he is fr gusto.He ask me in what way he gav me 安全感.I told him is when I am talking to him i feel comfortable.He say he is glad he feels like this.then told me he needs to concentrate now.I replied:"okie.jiayou :D shant disturb u nw :)" he reply back:"Don't think that way silly,you're not disturbing.Talk to u soon." i reply okie as i havin lecture nw.then he reply back:"have fun,chat later yeah? :)"
Then later i found out he figured out my twitter and followed me.I was like damn shocked as he is gonna find out hw crazy i am over Super Junior and Donghae.I admit i gav him my MSN,which is my email so tht is hw he figure out.Thn he tweet to me:it's ok,you're cute" i reply U SURE?? then he tweet to me:"why so insecure?" then he pm me at twitter if i on9 on MSN.
btw that guy told me his name bt i always refer him as gusto eunhyuk as according to nicole who saw him b4,he looks like eunhyuk.I got a feeling he likes me according to his smses and what he tweeted to me.That is not the end.I realise that I had been thinking about him every minute,every second.I even imagine he asking me for stead and the two of us going steady as boyfriend girlfriend.I am also very paisei at the fact that he is gonna find out my spazzing of Super Junior and donghae.Am I in love with him?I admit I am attracted to him because of his personality and the way he talk in our SMSes,not because he looks like eunhyuk.Actually I am not sure as i had never saw him before.I feel lost as I dont know his motive,and worst of all,if I am in love with him.
Can someone guide me please?I am now very lost.

Thursday, May 12, 2011 ♥ 10:58 PM

I am writing this as I want to show you the other side of me I had never shown to anyone.
Normally you all know that I seem like a strong person who dont seem to care about any setbacks and do not worry a lot and is able to get along with anyone.But I am sorry,you are wrong.In the inside I am a totally weak and sensitive person who minds everything that happen to me.
Firstly I may seem popular to you as everywhere I go I see people I know and my facebook friend list has 1000 over friends(i am NOT bragging,trust me).Excuse me do you know what is facebook friend list?I may have over 1K friends at FB bt how many of them do I personally know?Even if i personally know them hw many of them am I close to?Somemore sometimes I think that I am awkward around everyone,especially with my friends from school.Is like when we were left by ourself we do not say anything at all.This is coming from the bottom of my heart:I want to be closer to you,my friends.Whether you are willing to or not idk bt i know I wanted to be very close with you and not awkward anymore.So do give me a chance to know me better and lets hang out together more if you dont mind.
I may also seems immune to insults about me,as in when people insult me,I always say I dun give any shit to it at all,actually I do.Whenever I receive and insult about me I will keep thinking about it and will cry as my heart will break into many pieces upon receiving insults.Even if the insult was made more than ten years ago I still can remember it vividly in my heart and will still cry over it.I really do not know what to do about it.Telling people not to insult me anymore as I will feel very hurt about it?Well after all everybody is like this,I bet you will also feel hurt from insults right?Or treat it as a joke?Difficult for me as I always take things seriously.
I also understand that there are people who cant stand me.Well tell me what you cant stand about me truthfully.I am willing to change it,not only for the sake of you,but also for the sake of myself.I may not be a good person,but if I am aware what type of person I am,I will change it and become a better person.(P.S.if you want to tell me what you can't stand about me,I WANT TO LISTEN TO THE TRUTH AND NOT LIES)

Friday, May 06, 2011 ♥ 8:40 AM

btw yesterday i was also damn pissed at this goddamn f**cking bitch.well lets call her D bah.She is a cosplayer like me and she had such a bitchy and suck up attitude.
During haru bazzar,she promised one of my friend that she will lend her one of her costumes for cosfest.Then suddenly,she sold it off even though she had promised.When my friend found out she is soooo angry and even posted on her facebook wall to confront her.D even said to her:got family problems dont cos lorh.THIS IS WAYY TOO MUCH!people gt family problem ur business izzit?summore you promised her to lend her the costume for cosfest and yet you sold it,HEY SUCH A SIMPLE PROMISE U DUN NOE HW TO KEEP IZZIT?and you are like 21 or 22,if you are 5 or 6 at least i understand,but for your F**CKING AGE,YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT WHEN YOU PROMISE PEOPLE SOMETHING YOU SHOULD KEEP IT,even i am 17 or 18 years old,YOUNGER THAN YOU,i also know that.
Although i had no right to said it as i am also not that good,YOUR COSPLAYS ARE SOOO F**KING DISGUSTING!!MAKES ME PUKE MAN!!you go and look at yourself in the mirror,looks like pig siia,my piglet toy cuter than you alot lorh!still want call yourself bishie,MY FOOT!U WANT MAKE ME VOMIT BLOOD IZZIT?no one call themselves bishie,even jesuke a real bishie person who i idolise.YOU THIS DISGUSTING FREAK STILL CAN CALL YOURSELF THAT?well,you look bishie,you look like a super junior member,THE ONE WHOSE NAME IS SHINDONG(no insult to shindong here).oh no,YOU LOOK FAR WORST THAN SHINDONG!hw can i compare one of our 13 angels shindong to a b**ch like you?if you are a bishie,my grandfather is a bishounen that makes girls go gaga alreadi.
and unfortunately,you are the first person in my life that i scold till veri jialat like this.this shows hw much i dun approve and dislike you.end of story

♥ 8:30 AM

i am nw doing my inorganic chemistry tutorial while writing this blog posts.recently i can feel the stress alreadi.plus i found out that my schedule are always unplanned.i always know i had something on later on that very day,thus i had postponed/cancelled many meetups with friends because of this.
had two practical sections yesterday.looks like i am fated with practical and science after all.Now i am stressing on my practical data sheet report and their pre lab questions we are required to do before practical sessions.
how i miss my 5 months holiday.I dun mind if i had a holiday like that for a year or more,that is ultimate shiokness man.Now the only thing i can do is to await for my break on June.

Monday, May 02, 2011 ♥ 12:44 PM

siian...sick since friday.it started when i sleep halfway then feel shiverish non stop till i cant sleep then wake up with headache and fever.feels very dizzy thn fever slightly go down and went to school.then come back watch videos and sleep.bt whn i sleep fever cane back and had to go doctor.summore saturday onwards have sore throat coz i dk eat what lorh.
anyway yesterday went to scape for my grp first dance practise.we are taking part in the teenage kpop dance competition so hav to start practise asap.
a video of the dance we will be dancing for the audition

there is popping and dance wave in this dance so i had to practise more as i had not been dancing for like,9-10 years?worst of all i even had a solo ballet part in this dance!EXCUSE ME?i learnt ballet at 4 yrs old and stopped whn i was arnd 5.bt i am willing to take up this challenge as i was told that it wasnt difficult at all.come to think of it,even someone who just had her first ballet lesson can master it
and my goal is to enter the semi-finals of the competition.i personally think that if we train hard,practise more and our movements are synchronised,we will (:
btw it is abt time i will intro you to our awesome dance group,arctiCross
9 members,mainly do SNSD and Super Junior dance
originally named "SuShi"
members will be revealed once we manage to become famous(hopefully we are,because i can see that we will be more well-known after the competition)