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Tuesday, August 23, 2011 ♥ 5:18 PM

I had went through these during my life
my belongings and items being taken away and even I searched the entire classroom I still can't find it
Being called with nasty nicknames
When my hair was tied into a ponytail,my rubber band was being pulled off and thrown away and was found only a few months later
I had to buy another textbook as one of my textbook was being thrown away and manage to find it when breaks start
My head was placed in a big container and people will hit the container
My bra will always be unhooked by people
Sometimes I return home from school with bruises and cuts on my hands and legs
I was being shooted by rubber bands a few times
I was being pushed and thus I fell a few times,leaving cuts and bruises on my legs and sometimes blood
My passport photo was being drawn and pasted on the obituary section of the newspaper
I had been slapped by boys and also girls before
My textbook has been vandalised by drawings and sometimes nasty words before
Someone draw something obscene on a table and forged my signature beside it,and the teacher thinks I am the one who do it
Whenever I walk passed people,they always show that they are disgusted and run away
When people talk about me,they always describe me as contagious and is like I have a virus that will spread to them
They physically abused me by kicking,hitting and punching,sometimes they claimed it is someone else who do it.They think I am blind
In my friends' autograph book,my name had been written beside the word "hate" or "hell" plus nasty comments beside it,thinking I won't see it.But I did
Another physical abuse I had suffered,pen or pencil being poked into my arm
Being called crazy,ugly,disgusting in front of me
Being given code names so that they can say bad things about me online
Telling people they met for the first time bad things about me,causing them to leave the wrong impression about me
Planning to celebrate when I didnt come to school or when I died
Making vomit sounds when my name is mentioned
Assuming that I had a mental disease
Being left out when I want to hang out with them
Being splashed with buckets of water in a party
Openly saying bad things about me online,but denied when I confront them
Throwing my stuffs from my table
Throwing my bag around
Telling me to say what they want me to say so that I can make a fool of myself.Luckily I didnt fall for that
Asking me to do things that is embarrassing
Pasting insulting signs and even tortoise behind my back
Imitating my voice and quoting some things I said
Creating a fake guy to sweet talk with me so that I will fall in love with him and planning to make him break my heart so that I will feel very sad and heartbroken.
I wrote this as I want to encourage those who are struggling with bullies at school to stay strong.I had went through many of these and now here I am,staying strong and having a positive mindset.If you are having suicidal thoughts just because of one suffering you had encountered,you should see how much I suffer.Also if you have done this to me before and happened to read this,just to let you know I had forgiven you.I do not ask for you to feel regretful and apologise to me as it is already over.I just want to let you realise that even though you have show hate towards me,I had never hated you at all.I hope that you will have a wonderful and enjoyable life and everything that happened is the best for you.I will also be praying for you so that everything will be good for you.
Another advice,crying never works even though you are being taunted and is suffering from the hands of bullies.I once cried in front of them so that their heart will "soften" and realise that they are hurting me.Instead,they laughed and feel happy about it.Actually this is what they wanted to see.They want to see you cry and suffer.Just dont let them get what they want from the "satisfaction" of bullying by staying strong and immune to the whole thing
Also,never bully others just to let them understand how you feel.When I suffered severely,i actually bullied some people I can't stand so that I won't be the only one who is suffering.Looking back,I realised how selfish I am,without considering the feelings of some innocent people.Now I will rather I am the one who is suffering instead of my friends as they are innocent.
To conclude this,I just want to say that life is never smooth and comfortable.I had never expected my life to be that smooth and comfortable and go according to my ways,instead I leave it to God to plan for my life.I believe that those sufferings I went through are tests that God had given me,to see if I can survive or not.Happy to say,I had pass his tests.If I can,I hope you will.